Raquelrebelle's Journals

Thanks guys.

I just found out that the majority of my friends were fake. The second time this year. nice. I'm not perfect, and I have issues but I'm always straight forward, and say anything I have to say to your face. That's rare, and it gets me into shit but I refuse to be a backstabber. You should never have to worry about weither your friends have your back, I tried to let people know they could say anything they had to say straight to my face, no matter how bad because I'd appreciate it. But, you didn't none of you did, I'm so fucking threw with you, I've been through more shit in my life than you could imagine, and nothing can break me down. I'm always back up. I really cared about you guys, but I guess that's my fault. You know what, I probably still will continue to care about you because I'm sure you had a reason, but I don't want to talk to you, and don't even want to see you, get out of my fucking life. I am who I am, and I would never do anything intentianly to hurt you, but your so fucking selfish who cares what happens to other people as long as your okay. later. much later

I skipped school today..

because I could, and it's a pointless archaic system that sucks for the "leading world power" wtfever.
so i just did whatever and had fun <3

schools almost ova!

finally. srsly. this summers going to be fucking crrzzzay, because i want allow anything else >) i'm posting new pics by the end of the week, look for them, their gorgeous. and by gorgeous i mean sex.

he's small, but in a good way

I just got a pomeranian puppy, he's pretty much amazing. He's brown and black with white back feet and sortof a milk mustache. hawt. He doesn't have a name yet, I've got 20 different ideas as usual. idk. I think it's amusing that I've had him only 2 days and I've already spent $1500+ ... it's not that amusing when I think about it. I want my camera back so I can post pictures of us.

We all seem to be a little to into ourselves but, that won't last long

Confession:

I saw this guy at a show once,
I never saw his face.
But I loved him,
completely.
It's hard to explain,
to you time and time again.
I never forgot him,
but I'll forget all of you.
I think of him,
in the silence.
Why won't he leave me alone,
that's all I ask from him.
Do you understand,
that we are the same?
He and I,
we are the same.
He is I,
and I him.
Because secretly,
I have always wished.

to be HIM.

projection.
maybe all these nasty emotions that everyone is weezing lately are makeing me emotional. wtfv. im going to go paint.

X-acto hearts, Pink blades

I'm working on a screenprint this weekend, that is if I have enough time. It's pretty dope, but not as much as tonights going to be. <3 Idk post pics when it's done?

Money. Money. Money.

Technicly, for a kid in high school I make a lot of money but, unlike you average kid (honestly there's nothing average about me) I'm finanical indepent. Translation: I pay for my own clothes, food, shows, internet ect. .I'm totally stressed out right now though because it seems like I have nooo cash. No matter how much I make it seems to dissapear instantly. wtf. I don't have time for this, I am doing waaay too many amazing things to be held back by something as small as this.

btw I'm listening to Showbreads new song, haven't heard it yet? check it
btw part 2 I'm totally stoked about Snapshots and Streetlights e.p. release, I can't freaking wait.

Wtf. Idk. Something new 's always fun.

soo yesterday our school hosted the NAHS (basicly honors art kids) conference for the state. on a saturday. and we had to be there at 7 in the morning. it was pretty stellar overall. our crew was uber outgoing compared to the rest of people, no one had any idea what to think of me. lol, once again i did not blend in once so ever and everyone was staring at me. i'm soo used to it at this point, but fuck if your going to stare at me at least talk to me when i'm bored. it should be a fee. nw we learned how to do some rad alternative art techniques and got bombarded with info about the future of art. very nifty once you process it. hopefully i'll be able to put some of the stuff to use.
peace out,
do it right